I am not good with putting my thoughts into words. I never claim to be perfect and I won't start today.
I do feel like I have to be honest with my starz, the people who have supported this blog for the last three years.
When I started this blog, it was never meant to be taken serious. I was just using this blog as a vice to voice my opinions and explore my sexuality.
I never expected the blog to be popular. I never expect that I would make a decent living off of my blogs. I never thought I would meet some many interesting people and develop relationships. I just wanted to speak my mind and create a platform for men of color in the adult industry.
The last couple of months have been challenging for me. As of late, I have dealt with a lot of personal issues as well as some technical issues with the sites. It's really been stressful. Almost to the point in which it is affecting my healthy and state of mind.
Not to mention I am starting to really feel unappreciated and drained. This is no longer fun anymore. A lot of people don't know and will never understand how much I put into my blogs. I did all of this alone with little to no help.
I paid it but now I can no longer ignore my inner gut. I think it's time to end this journey and start a new one.
If you love Luckey enough, you would understand. If you don't, well kick rocks and keep smoking them. I still love you too.
Maybe I am just into my feelings but it's really where I am at right now.
I am tired of fighting with people I don't know. I am tired of spending a lot of my precious time trying please any and everybody. I am only human.
I am proud that I was able to be recognize as one of the most popular adult blogs of color. I am proud that even though at times the blog was gossipy, I was able to provide a platform for gay adult entertainers of color and their admirers.
I have no decided what I want to do at this point but I am giving it til the end of the year to decide what I want to do. I might just delete everything. I might sell it. I might continue. It won't be the same and it probably be too nice.
I don't know…
I did think it was fair to let my stars know where I am at though. I don't want anything, I just want you guys to know first hand where I am right now in my life…